Tag: Pain on the spiritual path

My Daily Practice – May 2026

by 8hummingbirdway

My daily spiritual practice changes over time. There is a gradual evolution. I shared about it last fall, although this was not a full description …it was about my connection with Mother Earth. It has been some time since I wrote about what I do to move forward on my spiritual path.

I share about this to provide possible inspiration to others. I recently learned about someone who dances every morning outside. This moved me, and expanded my perception of what a daily practice could be.

For me, an important aspect of my daily practice is gratitude. There are so many ways to be grateful – daily lists of blessings, speaking directly to God/Creator/Spirit, to Mother Earth and/or the Sun.

Ideally, we are able to walk in each moment with a heart full of gratitude, knowing that we are held, loved, known, and supported. I do better at this as time goes forward.

At this time, my daily practice includes:

  • Breathing exercises
  • Giving thanks to the unseen aspects of myself and my spiritual “team” which includes God, Lei Lei, my guardian angel, my 4th dimensional higher self, the healing angelic realm, and more that I do not understand or perhaps even know about. (Are any Arcturians part of my spiritual team? Maybe. This question just occurred to me.)
  • Asking this spiritual team for help in navigating the day in the highest way I can. I sometimes ask for specific help.
  • Establishing the “hollow bone” – the way Lei Lei’s messages/healing/information come to me and asking my mind not to interfere with this.
  • Meditation
  • Stretches and a few exercises including a daily walk.
  • Connect with Earth/Sun and serve as a conduit as previously posted.
  • Set the intention of chose frequencies for the day – see post here.

Additional daily intentions:

  • Prioritize availability for family texts/calls/conversations
  • Contribute to household and outside tasks in a harmonious and generous way
  • Study that which I wish to understand or connect with or learn more about

In general:

Dance, sing, love, laugh, connect to spirit, strive for balance.

These are my intentions.

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I was a Good Mom …?

by 8hummingbirdway

My life was all about my kids when they were little. I listended to them and hugged them and fed them the best food and spent time with them. I even got to homeschool them for 4 years.

But I just realized that these things were as much for me as for them.

I was a good role model to a large extent. I worked hard and didn’t lie. I didn’t allow them to hurt each other or tell jokes that were unkind. I took them on road trips and adventures and arranged play dates with other families. We spent a lot of time at the library.

But this morning in my meditation some things showed up for me that I did not do.

When my marriage fell apart for me, I didn’t recognize that my children’s entire family was falling apart. My children at this time were at a place where our family was the foundation of their lives.

Their dad was away a lot anyway as they were growing up, so I didn’t realize the loss they were navigating. And truly, he slowly drifted away from them. He did. He is not a bad man, but a man who had no father present for him and didn’t know how to be one. And a musician. He travels.

But I degress. I have discovered this morning how self-centered I have been. This has been changing in the past year or so, but the glimpse I had today was painful.

I have realized in the recent past that my version of being a wife was problematic. And I’ve improved, learned to be a true ally. Still working on it.

But I always thought my parenting was on a high level.

A truly present mother would realize that when you face this loss, divorce of your parents, that you would be suffering in a significant way. And that when another loss was on it’s heels you would need extra attention and comfort and maybe a heartfelt talk. I did not realize these things.

A better mother would provide a safe space for you when, a few years later, you faced another loss. But no. I put my own comfort first.

I was deceptive at another time so that I could be helpful to someone else.

Later, I forgot how to be a kind grandma with words and actions. I got overwhelmed and acted in a way toward my young grandson that I never would have acted toward my children at that age.

These things all returned to me this morning.

I have wondered why my child is so distant. Now I understand.

Of course I texted my child and shared a list of my follies.

Oh. Self-centered.

I will do better.

There may be more to reveal itself about who I have been, how I have navigated my life.

I know this is part of the path I am on.

It’s a hard day. There have been many tears. I have had to accept an aspect of myself that I have not been aware of, that I deeply regret.

In all honesty, this is the one of the fruits of being on a spiritual path

Increased connection with Spirit and self is deeply rewarding …but not always easy or what one might expect.

I am grateful for the truths that were shown to me today.

I will reap the benefits of this knowledge …in my future perception, choices, and ways of being.

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