Good news!

For the past month I have been offering healing and information through channeling. Some have tapped into weekly healing sessions, some one time requests for healing and or information.

It is hard work. I need to spend several hours each morning preparing myself (reaching an appropriate frequency), channeling, then transcribing the session and sending them off when appropriate.

It’s demanding, and I am still learning to simply allow the information to simply arrive without my opinion/interference.

I wasn’t looking for a job, actually. But I was told in no uncertain terms that this is my path, my work, that I agreed to do this before this incarnation. I face criticism and I’ve had failures. I started attempting this in September, but it was only recently that I emailed 35 allies and offered my services.

People responded. I’ve had zoom sessions, questions emailed and texted, people come over to ask in person, I’ve traveled to the homes of others. I have 7 people who signed on for weekly healing.

I am so grateful for all this trust and practice. I am doing the work every day, and I am bringing forth love and my best self every day.

This morning a friend told me she is sleeping better in response to guidance from several weeks ago. Another friend I’m channeling healing for weekly emailed to tell me that my healing help and guidance was just what she needed to hear and work on, because she needs help in exactly this area of her life right now.

And so I’m helping! My heart and soul soar!

Private sessions are offered in person and remotely by phone or video conference. Contact Annie to book a shamanic session, host a workshop, for sliding scale rates or to discuss barter arrangements. There is no change for group or individual channeling sessions at this time.

Recent Texts from Goma

I have a couple of allies in Africa after last February’s trip. One is in Uganda and the other in in the Democratic Republic of Congo (DRC). When we went to the DRC, there were warnings in the US not to cross the border from Rwanda into DRC. That there was danger from rebels surrounding the city, and food supplies were at risk. My husband asked me not to go, he was afraid of harm coming to me, but I chose to trust my son’s friend, Bienve. See post here.

See more about Bienve’s work here.

See a post about the 2nd refugee camp we visited here and here.

Indeed all was well. We had meals in various restaurants, at the refugee camp, and at Bienve’s home. I do have to admit that we heard artillery from beyond the refugee camps both days, and we did see evidence of policies that were geared to limit the hours of restaurants (weakening them).

Now it’s a different story. If you are listening to the news, you are probably aware that Goma is under attack.

Bienva’s references to the international mafia are actually not the country of Rwanda – as stated in the media both last year and this year. Rwanda military may be the tool, but corporations employ them – corporations who want the valuable minerals that are known to be below Goma. If you do just a little research, you will find talk of the minerals.

I am afraid for the people of Goma and especially for the displaced persons of the refugee camps

I have been in communication for the past few days with Bienve, although he was not confident that the internet would sustain.

[The international language in DRC is French, but Bienve does pretty well with English.]

Sunday January 26

Bienve, my prayers are with you and your family. And all the displaced persons.

Thank you.

It’s very very bad

The rebels are now in Goma officially and it’s a very bad situation.

This hurts my thoughts. I am holding you in my heart

Monday January 27

You are first on my mind this morning. Is there any change?

Ohhh very bad.

I call for protection and peace.

Thank you.

Tuesday January 28

Are you safe?

We are safe but staying in the house. We can’t go anywhere now because guns are

shooting everywhere and people are losing their life.

The news here said that the borders of Goma are secured. But still shooting?

Not yet.

Do you have water? (Bienve has 4 young children and one older daughter who he adopted before his marriage.)

We have some.

And some food?

We are waiting if shop will be open in a few days. And banks are closed unfortunately.

But it’s not easy really.

No. Not easy. Frightening. Everything is uncertain.

Exactly.

We are facing bad days really.

We don’t know what to do.

We have many movements of the populations and we are in a high needs of supports

because people are not working anymore; they are staying in place. Waiting if the

situation will be ok.

And you don’t know how to help because that’s what you DO. And everyone is in need.

But it’s not safe.

Exactly. And I must protect my loved ones.

Even we should have some food but we are empty because its still January.

And in January many partners are in planning(for the refugee camps, and the youth

industry}. Not having any funding yet is part of the challenge.

We have bad internet.

And no food for your family?

We have some, not enough.

Can you help me know how to pray for you, for Goma?

safety and food.

Do you have any news of the displaced persons’ refugee camps?

—-Perhaps I will get an answer to this last question when the internet is working again.

As well as concern for Bienve and his family, the refugees, the child soldiers and all of Goma, I am reminded of our approach in eradicating and moving the tribal people in this continent. My husband, a lover of history, reminded me recently that we waited until Spring to lay siege to the Native Americans. Their food supplies were often depleted, diminished and they could not last long.

In Goma, they are attacked for the 2nd year in a row in January, when food supplies are low and people cannot sustain deprivation. Their growing season starts in February, as well as their funding, as Bienve noted.

It hurts my heart and my faith in humanity to see this greed and ruthlessness and lack of compassion at play despite those who have made a life in and around Goma.

In the past I have asked for support for Remember Youth For Change, Bienve’s work with small industries, child soldiers, and refugees. However, this is not the time.

Prayers would be welcome, specifically for safety and food.

For Bienve and his family, for the child soldiers he helps, for the displaced person’s camp, and for all of Goma.

Questions I haven’t asked him and will not broach:

-What minerals are below his house?

-Will soldiers take his home, will they destroy it to dig?

Yes, I know I am imagining the worst. Perhaps this is unwise.

But I can see this home in my mind’s eye that may be at risk.

My thoughts and heart have turned back to my time with Bienve and his family. On our last afternoon in Goma, after our visit to the Bulango Camp, Bienve wanted to honor my son + I. He stopped at several fruit stands, knowing that my son loves fruit smoothies. After talks and photos and gifts (they – the youth sewing industry Bienve created – made a beautiful shirt for my son and a dress for me!) at the office of Remember Youth for Change …we went to his home, on the lower level and connected with his children, his wife Clariss, and a family friend. We whiled away the time in their home for a couple of hours, connecting with the children, cutting tropical fruit and devouring it to everyone’s delight.

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Message to Children in Congo

I was invited yesterday by Bienve, our host in Congo almost a year ago (in February), to send a message to the children at an upcoming feast (on Christmas), and I know it was a request for funds for this feast, and that is a fair trade. I feel good about providing funds and about sending a blessing.

Click here to read a prior post about Bienve Kamwendo, and here and here to read about my visit to this refugee camp.

I cannot cover the entire meal; if you would like to contribute even a small amount to this meal for hundreds of children in the refugee camp I visited, please see the purple box below. Money goes much farther in Africa, and the meal will be simple – rice, beans, cabbage, and a small amount of meat.

Here’s my Christmas day message to the chidren:

Last year it was a blessing for me to meet you, to sing with you, to watch the games and the dances, to touch your hands and to smile into your beautiful faces.

I will never forget the blessing of visiting you and finding your open hearts.

Don’t forget your sacred ways from your ancestors.

Remember the dance and the songs and the foods and your ancestral lands.

Don’t forget the stories that your parents tell you, and be sure to remember the names of your elders and ancestors.

I hope you will work hard to make this world a better place for all people.

See the good in others if you can. Sometimes it’s hiding, but it’s there most of the time. You will know. You will be able to feel it.

Hold a vision of a good world full of good people. I am praying for this, and simply trying to be good myself. 

Let us all love our families and our neighbors and ourselves.

Don’t forget to love yourself.

When you are in a dark time, when you are struggling and sad or angry or hurt, reach out to the light of God, to the light of your ancestors and your loved ones, to Mother Earth, to the Sun and the Sky and the Water, and that which is closest to you. There is always a way to find comfort, whether inside yourself or outside yourself or in others. Quiet your mind and reach inside yourself to find out what you need to know, how to find the comfort, or what steps to take. This is the way to live life – for all of us.

I send you much love.

From the Mzungu, Annie, mother of Jeff who works with Bienve.

To contribute any amount to this meal, contact me at 8hummingbirdway@gmail.com

Would you like to know more about the nonprofit organization created by Bienve Kamwendo in Goma – Remember Youth for Change? https://www.facebook.com/rememberyouthforchange

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Why me?

[Session of channeling Lei Lei on 10/21/24]

[Good morning Lei Lei. I greet you and thank your for your presence. I’m grateful for your being here when I reach out.]

You’re welcome Annie. We are happy to be here. It is our honor to speak through you. There is no other that could bring forth our voice at this time.

[This surprises me. Why is this?]

It is because we are of you; you are of us. We are family. You have recognized my qualities. I speak as Quan Yin. And Paula [my guardian angel] has been with you since your incarnation. And the Spirit of Love and Generosity lives within you. And other loving beings are part of this family as well. And we all make up the presence that is speaking.

[It seems very important that I make myself available for your voice to be heard.]

We feel it is important and we are grateful for your turning towards us and making yourself available to us.

[Thank you for explaining this to me.]

We felt you should understand.

We hope that is will not seem a heavy weight, but an honor and will help you know how important it is for you to practice and become comfortable with our voice, our frequency, our messages.

Please do not experience this as pressure. We sense that there is some element of this that you are  …taking on. 

Let this be a pleasure.

[Well …it is not something I have looked for, and I do feel a heavy importance that I serve in this way …and that I make myself available.

However, I have already been called into service by my soul. I understand that this is my mission, my work, part of the work that I have here in this life, so …I don’t fully understand it, but I respect it. I certainly respect my soul. I have asked to be aligned with my soul, to walk the path of my soul, to express my soul, and this is part doing that.]

Yes. This is part of doing that. We are glad that you understand in this way.

[This is a lot to sort out. I may have more questions.]

We are here for you.

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Message about “landing in my heart more fully”

[In this post I am channeling Lei Lei, the being who presents in my sessions.]

10/13/24

Sometimes you seem to feel not enough. As if you should be perfect. As if it’s not ok to be imperfect, to be confused or to go down a road of disharmony or uncertainty or …you’re simply a human.

You are simply a mortal being who tries her best, who offers up herself in humility and fails sometimes to sustain humility or understanding. These are the things that are your imperfections. These are the things that make you feel that you are less. These are the things that you have a hard time accepting about yourself …and this is what you [can] plant – these seeds of imperfection, these seeds of confusion and doubt or misgivings about ..your responses, your reactions. [I’m to plant for transformation.] You’ve come so far. Allow yourself these small mistakes, these small  …you will never be perfect, you are a human. It is not required that you be perfect. You do not have to be a god or an angel or a goddess while you are here on this Earth dealing with all of these disharmonies and challenges around you – and the frequencies [energies] around you – and just everything [on this plane of existence]!

It’s ok. Being who you are is ok.

[So – is there no great thing that I am missing?]

There’s nothing that you are missing. That which you are pulling at is not something that you can have at this time. It’s not something that you can force. Allow yourself to be a mere fallible human.

[I will do my best to proceed as you say. Thank you for your help here in guiding me in my confusion and delusion or desires to be more than I am.]

It is not delusion, Annie. 

All the seeds that you plant bring great fruit. 

All the love that you gather up and allow to float through you bear great fruit.

Your ideas of what “great” is are many. They may or may not flow in any particular direction that comes to mind for you. Allowing is the way. Just being yourself. See what happens!

Let life unfold around you …and respond to it in the way that seems best. This is the teaching for now.

It is difficult to be human and to  …just allow …to not push …to allow and flow. This is the teaching for you that you would do well to consider and allow. This will help you to land in your heart more fully.

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A Daily Practice

A new client recently expressed interest in establishing a daily practice. She and I will talk more about it, and I wanted to share some thoughts here as well.

My daily practice has the role of renewing my focus each morning. It is usually the first thing I do. If I had a rough start or am encountering challenges, it brings me to gratitude and to connection with God/Creator/Spirit and to humility. I walk away with the resources I need to be my best self.

My daily practice evolves. There are times when it felt important to be outside every morning and dance on the earth and sing out loud. I miss that. I would like to do more of that. But I live in a neighborhood now and I don’t have a desire to perform for humans – only bees and the groundhog and flowers and the wind.

Today my practice is to go to an altar in my loft over the garage. My altar is a small low table. On it I have the basics – the 4 elements represented by stone, feathers, a candle and water .

I have photos above my altar of those I look to for inspiration – those I admire.

I have small photos of beloved people too .

I light the candle, and my practice begins. “I light the flame of connection to Spirit, to Creator, to my helping spirits ….”

I speak a lot of words. It feels right to me to express myself verbally, to offer gratitude in this way and to reaffirm my connection and gratitude to and for my ancestors, to ask for protection for myself (and for others who have given me permission to do so).

I sing too. I sing in gratitude …and to express my willingness to be a tool for helpful transformation.

If only one or two sentences of this description resonate with you, that could be your daily practice. It might change …and grow …it might be perfect for you for a lifetime. Or at some point you may feel you no longer need it.

A daily practice could be as simple as touching a special stone on your way to the kitchen with the words “Thank you for my life and for this day.” or a chant or a simple song.

My altar practice is not a rule or an obligation; it’s just a help along the way.

It helps me drop my anger or annoyance toward others.

It helps me remember my blessings.

It reminds me of the support I have.

It reminds me of who I want to be in each day.

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A Stand in the Park

About a month ago I heard about a global movement called “A Stand in the Park.” It began in Australia, and now people in 40 countries stand in the park on Sunday mornings (10-11 local time) for personal truth and freedom. There are 44 Stands in the USA. and thousands worldwide.

(It’s a Stand, not a protest.)

This news moved me greatly. I looked for a nearby Stand. There are only 2 others in NY, both downstate. And so I asked Lei Lei for guidance, and here is the response:

This is a blessed aspect of your work here at this time, and so we gratefully and enthusiastically bless your vision and your desire to act. We will be supporting you in this mission and in your ability to be present for this beginning and to assist moving forward in whatever capacity is the best for you, whatever you choose, however things unfold. It will be a blessed group and action and movement forward.

2 days later, after some thought and doubts about the timing of this action …

Yes, the time is now. And you may say to others that the time is now, that you have concerns about where we are going as a being of humanity, and so you feel it is time to stand for personal truth and for freedom.

And so I started a Stand here in the village of Middleburgh, NY. I put up some flyers and began to spend an hour in a village park every Sunday.

I have enjoyed my time. So far I have communed with the nearby trees, the hills, the sky, the sun, been visited by the wind, enjoyed the creek bordering the park, found a dime, been observed by a cat, and met 2 humans and a dog on a walk. Many birds have been around as well. I’m grateful for all of them. I feel closest to the trees and the wind.

I was prepared for a long time on my own. The person who started the movement stood alone in his park for 3 months before another joined him.

I will probably eventually write up something for the local newspaper about it.

This week a friend asked abut the Stand. I had told her I was doing it and she wanted to come. She looked it up on the international website and I hadn’t reported it. But I’m standing for a while and I should put it on …and now I have.

I wrote these words:

Let us stand for personal truth and for freedom. Each person’s truth, whether they agree with me, or another or anyone else. We must be able to speak our truth, be heard …never silenced. This BRINGS freedom.
Let us also stand for community. For knowing each other and sharing ourselves and maybe even helping each other when there is a need and the desire to help.
Simply standing for personal truth and freedom is an excellent start.

Thank you, my supportive friend!

Also, here are the contents of the local flyer:

We Stand for Personal Truth and Freedom

A STAND IN THE PARK

A Stand In The Park unites people in parks all over the world every Sunday Morning

We Stand In The Park for personal truth and freedom

  • 10 – 11am local time
  • It’s a Stand, not a protest
  • We stand for personal truth and freedom
  • Rain, Hail or Holiday…..  we stand

Our local stand is on Baker Ave in Middleburgh at

William Morton Creekside Park 

To learn more: www.astandinthepark.org

There are 44 Stands in the USA.

There are Stands in Australia, Belgium, Canada, Costa Rica, Croatia, Denmark, Europe, France, Germany, Greece, Hong Kong, Hungary, Ireland, Malta, Mexico, Netherlands, New Zealand, Norway, Peru, Portugal, Romania, South Africa, Spain, Sweden, Switzerland, United Kingdom                               

A session of energy work; Blessing and Change

Last week I had a session with a trusted healer and friend, G.

Energy work is something I don’t fully understand. I know it includes balancing chakras, the intuition of the healer, and the trust of the client. In my experience with the person I work with, it includes the guidance of spiritual beings.

I also know it has brought me significant healing – physical, emotional, spiritual, + mental.

I don’t always have a specific reason for making an appointment for energy work. It had been a few months, and I felt it was time.

This time I started by letting G know that I had fallen and hurt my knee the day before, so it might be sensitive. She asked about the incident and I told her I had been walking in the dark around my neighborhood and that when took a step with my right foot, I suddenly felt there was no ground under my foot, and I tumbled. I also mentioned that this experience felt very similar to an experience I had in Uganda in February on my trip to Africa. The new wound was within an inch of the scar from that injury.

G asked me about the feeling of the ground not being beneath me. Was there anything that tied the 2 events together?

Thinking back to February, I remembered that this was a day when my son and I had had a falling out. I had flown a very long way to meet him, was exhausted, and that first afternoon he felt I said the something unsupportive. I felt disconnected and didn’t know what to do or say to make things ok between us.

Interestingly, I had had a falling out with my younger daughter on a visit north – about a week before my recent fall, which resulted in her not speaking to me for a few days.

My connection with my 3 children are definitely part of the ground I stand on. Being a mom and being in harmony with them, supportive, present when called upon – these are deeply important to me.

I shared a lot of thoughts and feelings about all this with G verbally, and after a while she encouraged me to leave the realm of words …and be more present for myself, to connect with my heart as she worked.

After a bit I came back to talking as she worked – about the blessing of having children and how it was one of the richest times in my life, being in that time of bringing forth life and being engaged with love and being the center of my children’s world …and just all the blessing! And now having adult children who no longer look at me at that way (naturally), and don’t really have a significant need for me in their lives (or so it seems to me).

G told me then that her guides had a message for me – that when a person agrees to give birth to a child they also agree to have their heart broken. 

This felt profoundly true to me. I closed my eyes, and saw an ocean of loss before me. Just gentle shaded waves of loss.

The tears came for a while.

Later in our session, G passed on the message that when your heart is fully broken, the door is open for things to come back into balance with your child.

I wept the next day as well and then absorbed myself in tasks. The next morning my daughter, nearby again, reached out to me and asked if I’d like to take a walk. We did walk, and had a harmonious connection. I kept in mind the fact that she is having a hard time right now and she does not need my needs or concerns or judgment regarding how she is handling things.

I find myself hoping my heart has been fully broken …I can find a new balance with her.

I wonder the same in relation to my son. Things have shifted with him; have I arrived?

I know I have crossed that bridge with my oldest daughter. Once my greatest challenge, she is now one of my closest allies in this life.

I am grateful for this new understanding and for moving forward toward being supportive, toward increased blessing, balance, and love.

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Recent Changes

I have shared previously that I have been engaged with a healing process called Soul Convergence. I am nearing the end of the process, for which I am grateful. It has been deeply demanding.

It has been a powerful healing which has brought much to me – wisdom, comfort, ease, trust, self-love, harmony. I have been deeply engaged with this process and it has changed my life and my pathway forward, bringing me into closer alignment with my soul.

I have learned a couple of important things through dream analysis, which is provided 8 times over the 5 months of engagement with this work.

I have learned that our souls communicate to us by way of dreams.

One of the most significant things I learned from my dream analysis is that I arrived in this life with a soul agreement to become a channeler. This means that I promised to make myself available to disembodied being(s) – to bring forth information, messages, healing – much as my friend Norlen does.

The difference is that Norlen always wanted to channel, and I had a good deal of resistance to this. However, after repeated messages over the months, I opened my mind and heart and began to accept this mission and learn more about it.

For the past 4 or 5 weeks I have been channeling on my own (asking questions and receiving answers). Many of the answers have been extremely helpful to me – in understanding others around me, in making choices of how to respond to challenges, and so on.

Twice I have channeled for friends. (It’s interesting and challenging to get my own personality out of the way!)

The being I am channeling is named Lei Lei. They are a being that contains Quan Yin, my guardian angel Paula (feminine aspect of Paulo), the Spirit of Love and Generosity and other loving beings that have not (yet) been identified to me.

I have had a longtime (30 years) connection with Quan Yin (which can be spelled in various ways). She is a goddess of love, compassion and mercy. I am obviously closely aligned with my guardian angel as well, although I have only recently become aware of her. I am told that all the beings that make up Lei Lei are closely aligned with me, and for this I am grateful – and feel deeply honored.

It’s uncomfortable to share this information, but it is my work to do so.

It’s also exciting!

My children and my husband and a few trusted others know.

Now I am sharing this information here.

I hope to follow with some channeled information in the future.

Thank you for receiving this information in the highest and best way possible.

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Patterns

I have discovered many patterns within myself recently. Patterns I don’t like. Patterns I am ashamed to carry.

They keep showing up one by one.

It’s part of what occurs during the healing process I am on called Soul Convergence. I wrote about this in July, when I was 3 weeks into the journey. Now, in October, I have several weeks to go and I cannot imagine each time I receive a new guided meditation, where it will bring me.

The process contains more than I can describe. It is not for the faint of heart, but it is profound and deep and healing. An amazing amount of love is provided by the Angels who support the process.

It is also exhausting on some level that I don’t understand. I am simply spending about an hour each day listening and opening to the messages …but I am navigating a great deal internally.

As well as love and healing, I am confronted with myself, over and over, more and more deeply. Recognition of patterns I have carried show up during the meditations, in my dreams, and in my behavior. I suppose I am seeing with different eyes these days.

I have also recognized that I have had trouble letting go of what is past – people, ideas, feelings.

I learned that I have interfered in the lives of others. I haven’t been about to mind my own business.

I noticed that I have carried a tendency of thinking I know what everyone ELSE should do, even if I haven’t said anything.

I’ve discovered that I shared what people have said about others with those others – without even realizing it.

I have realize that I act like a spoiled brat sometimes.

I have seen myself being lazy, selfish, and judgmental.

This has all been deeply upsetting and difficult. But I’ve come to understand that this is part of the path I’ve chosen and I have learned to navigate each instance within a few hours, to make a different choice more aligned with the integrity I WANT to align with, and to return to balance fairly quickly.

Making a different choice helps me to release the pattern …and activate a new way of being.

I am happy to say that my family still loves me. They did even before I learned these things about myself. Not that they want to hear about all this. I get that. We all have our own paths.

I am looking forward to landing on my feet after this Soul Convergence.

Next month I will see who I am.

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