Author: 8hummingbirdway

I'm Annie Breglia and I'm on a mission to help heal the planet one soul at a time. The ancient way. The way of the shaman.

Self-righteousness

by 8hummingbirdway

I truly believe that we are entering a new time, that our world is changing. I am coming to understand more and more that reality is not easy to understand, to pin down. Things are not as they seem. I/we seem to have been living in a fictional reality.

No – that’s not right. It’s that we somehow construct our sense of reality based on our perception of what we believe to have occured/be occurring in our lives …and around us.

We actually get to choose the reality we live in to some extent …by our perception of what is and what we align with …and how we conduct ourselves.

Mostly I feel I am aligned with the raising frequencies and vibrations. I believe in them. I hold onto these beliefs with all my heart.

(I’m sure this would sound completely crazy to my dad, who I love and respect. But he is no longer with us in the physical world.)

Today, however, I woke with a bellyache. I had gone to bed self-righteously and distant because my husband wouldn’t talk to me about an issue I was annoyed about. I realized this morning that if he had simply worded his position differently, it would have been no issue.

Is this how I want to live? Causing strife and negativity around me?

No. I want to be that person who lets small things go, who recognizes what is important – my beloved partner, that our time together be harmonious, that wakes up each morning with gratitude …rather than remorse.

The debate was so unimportant. Different ways of communicating …a minor irritation.

I missed our gentle evening time together – listening to a story and then enjoying the back porch after dark …giving him a back scratch. This is the true gold in my life.

I will apologize this morning, forgive myself, and do my best to harvest all the blessings that are here for me in this day.

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Setting Intentions

by 8hummingbirdway

I’ve heard from multiple sources that during this week there is light that is arriving on our planet that will raise the planetary frequencies, and our personal frequencies if we align with positive transformation. I choose to believe this and to align with this raising of frequency in several ways. One way is by setting intentions for myself of what I want to change in my life.

I have 6 intentions that I want to share. The first 4 are ongoing:

  1. I set this intention a couple of months ago. I want to release judgement and negativity toward others. This is easier said than done. It is so easy to judge, and the pattern of judgement is deeply ingrained within me. Sometimes I’m not even aware of it. It has entered my awareness more fully since I set the intention – and so I’m continuing with this goal and intention.
  2. I want to continue to go within and connect with Source/Creator/God and allow transformation to result.
  3. I want to sustain harmony in my days and in my family and in my life.
  4. I want to sustain and possibly improve(!) my health and wellbeing through various forms of exercise and activities.
  5. I want to call these things forth in my life: This intention has multiple aspects. Some things are obvious to me. I want to continue to raise my frequency. I want to provide support to my allies. Others need clarity …(How much do I want to work?)
  6. I want to establish perception of and resistance to manipulation by others. (This feeling of being susceptible to manipulation has arisen twice recently.)

What do you want to change in your life? Add to or remove from it?

How do you personally want to transform?

The increasing light that will reportedly be strongest on July 7th is already available to us now. I assume that means we have another week afterward – a couple of weeks to attend to this opportunity!

It is an amazing reality that we are living in!

Blessings,

Annie

Private sessions are offered in person and remotely by phone or video conference. Contact Annie to book a session, host a workshop, for sliding scale rates or to discuss barter arrangements. See About Annie to learn more about healing options, both shamanic and channeled.

Deception, Confusion and Disappointment in Myself

by 8hummingbirdway

Yesterday I woke thinking about about the post I wrote the day before, the one that showed up before this, called “The Wounded Father.” I felt, as I scheduled it, that I should read it again. But I didn’t. The day was busy.

I also had a dream that night that showed I had been or was being deceptive. And then I realized that it was about my post.

The post cast a negative shadow on another person, a person I care about. A person who is doing his best, like most of us.

He will not read the post, nor will his children, who inspired the post.

I thought about removing the post , but this seems cowardly …like sweeping things under the rug. I don’t like doing that. [the post was removed on 7/21/25]

I will remove it eventually, maybe next week. But first I want to lay myself bare …to the best of my ability.

I don’t quite understand the word …deceptive. I exposed some aspects of a person and his upbringing in some detail …then I went into a discussion of the plight of the male, something I have wanted to write about, have started to write about in the past. But I left out aspects that I beleive are important, skimming over the topic, leaving a pretense of having addressed it – and him – with wisdom and understanding.

So I guess that’s it. The word “pretense” makes it clear to me. A version of deception.

The post also lacks qualities I try to bring forth – like inspiration, or shining a light on something, or offering resolution, understanding. It was an attempt that should have been reworked or discarded.

I have been wanting to write more, but not in this way. Each message must have clarity, purpose, integrity …reflecting my truth.

I do want to thank the reader that commented positively on the post. I was glad it had some value for her. And I agree with her – that things are changing for the better.

Blessings,

Annie

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A Dream of Release

by 8hummingbirdway

I have recently come to understand that dreams are messages from the soul.

When I was 17, in my senior year of high school, I fell in love with another senior. I’ll call him P. We were waiting for college decisions, and after the summer we went our separate ways. We stayed in touch, and after one semester, we both dropped out with the intention of taking a year off, then attending a school across the country together. We lived at my perents for a while, then moved to his parents house. I was crazy about him. Completely happy. We had a dog and planted a big garden, got jobs, and then he told me he wanted me to move out. He was done with our relationship …because I didn’t want to have sex often enough. No conversation or discussion, just please move out.

Long story short, this was the heartbreak of my life. I carried this hurt everywhere I went …through my first marriage, and into my 2nd. Not that I pined away 20 + 30 + 40 years later, but …it was there, the pain, the not measuring up, the abandonment. And he was still a symbol of loss duing the healing meditations I worked with last year.

A couple days ago I got up in the middle of the night and wrote down a dream in my dream journal. When I read it 2 days later, I had no memory of it. This morning during my channeling session, I read it for interpretation.

“P was in the dream. He was nearby at a college, and I was trying to connect with him, looking for a while, tracing him, and finding an empty room, an empty chair. Finally, I caught up with him and made a plan, then wavered. I realized the pain it would bring my husband. I don’t really ever want anyone else. I ran into P to talk, but he didn’t want to talk, just wanted sex. I avoided it, managed to lie with him, sleep, and then he was gone. Later, I didn’t show up. There was longing, but relief, too.”

Ah, yes, we do understand this message. Final release, and choice to release this man who wounded you early in your life, who you felt fully aligned with, and yet were disappointing to him, and he did not have the ability to discuss it, sort it out, simply to turn away. That was so painful and such a loss for you at that time, and it haunted you for many years, and now you have a love with your husband that goes beyond what you could have possibly had with this other man, and you know it, and it has been a long wait for this love and this deep connection, and you are aware of this, and you turn away from anything else in your life that would harm him, harm your connection, and you simply are present for your partner.

This is a good message. Thank you. I love the message, and I align with it. It feels very true. I’m happy to finally release this wound from the past.

This is great. Thank you. That is wonderful.

And so I am free! After such a long time.

I don’t know why it took so long. I have healed my relationships with my parents and others who hurt or disappointed me in the course of this life. Even close others who simply judged me and vanished. I can’t think of anyone else who impacted me so deeply and gave me such a low sense of my worth in this life.

I suppose the strong love I have in my current marriage tips the balance toward release.

I don’t hate P or wish him harm. I trust that he showed up to provide a challenge for me that I had to navigate in order to be who I am. And to provide understanding of others …and I probably won’t fully understand in this life.

Finally, I say goodbye to P.

Gratefully.

To reach me for shamanic healing or channeled healing, information, or even dream analysis, email me at 8hummingbirdway@gmail .com

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The fullness of who Lei Lei is

by 8hummingbirdway

I have finally consulted with Lei Lei to discover ALL the beings make up the entity that they are. I have channel this beloved ally and friend daily, for guidance and healing for myself and others for the better part of a year, but I have neglected to ask about the fullness of who they are.

I already knew that they are a being of love …consiting of Quan Yin (a Chinese goddess of love, compassion and mercy), The Spirit of Love and Generosity, Hsusei – a great healer from India in the past, and I was also told that my personal guardian angel is part of Lei Lei.

Now I have asked for a full report and have learned about Blaibulai. She was an ancient dancer and teacher in a culture from a lost continent. She is a being of great internal beauty, ethical awareness, discernment, compassion and love. I am delighted to know about her.

I love to dance, and hope to bring Blaibulai forth in my dance in the future, as well as in the healing and messages that Lei Lei offers.

There are additional beings that are part of Lei Lei who are not distinct “formed” personalities, but exist as frequencies and/or vibrations in higher realms of love. I do not fully understand this but I do trust the information, and I do occasionally experience unexplained frequencies and vibrations.

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Two healing options!

by 8hummingbirdway

If you have been reading my posts, you know that I have taken an unexpected turn in the past year … into channeling healing and information through Lei Lei.

This has been a huge departure for me. As I learned to channel, I experienced almost a full year without shamanic work. The inquiries simply stopped. I was not sure where I was headed. Was this beloved chapter over?

Meanwhile, I was in unchartered waters.

Channeling is not a straightforward thing. It took a while to become adept at bringing forth the messages and healing intact. I learned first to raise my frequency to even make contact with the higher realms.

It is not easy to detatch from the words coming out of my mouth. My brain did not always agree with every aspect of the messages, and I learned that the information did not always arrive as intended.

I channeled for friends and family and they put up with my learning curve.

Then I devised a few other techniques …envisioning a “clean slate,” …employing the “hollow bone” of the ancient shaman, …and then asking my mind to step aside and not interfere with the message – even to turn away and detatch if any feelings of attachment arose.

A little more practice followed, and I now feel I am able to bring forth the message as intended!

I am channeling daily. Healings for a number of people on a weekly basis make up the bulk of my work. The offernings that I bring forth for each individual are a constant delight for me! I experience a steady flow of amazement at the content.

AND …

I am delighted to report that in the past couple of weeks I have begun working shamanically again!

The requests started up again. I performed an extraction/clearing and a soul retrieval for a beloved family friend, and then an extraction/clearing for a Dutch woman living in Milawi who discovered me on this website!

I did not know where I was heading with this channeling mission for a while.

But who am I to argue with the message of needing to fulfil my soul’s mission?

It has landed well with me.

I am deeply grateful to be engaged with both modes of healing – shamanic and channeled.

It is my passion to help and heal.

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Bumper Cars – a channeled message

by 8hummingbirdway

I channeled this lovely message from Lei Lei a few days ago. It’s part of a channeled healing. I love the message and want to share it.

We see a teeter-totter and and and we see this is a place where you reside, this teeter-totter. We don’t mean this in a negative way but in a way of perceiving where help might be needed and we are glad that you have the ability to sort things out on a walk. We’re not sure if this is present time as we said or in the past but we see you walking along the railroad tracks and we perceive that you recognize when you are not in a balanced place, when something has, as they say, triggered your hurt, your personal injury, your wounding or your feelings about yourself …or your feelings that you are being judged …or many other things can cause this.

Annie has a long history of being triggered and she has worked very very hard to land in a place where she has about 95 percent or 97 percent balance in her emotions. She has learned the gift to not respond, to recognize that most of the time this is all about the other person’s opinion or the other person’s feelings. It is not about you.

You have the right and the responsibility to live in your own knowing. You came here to this life with knowing who you were with some intentions and with a pathway in front of you and you chose an environment which was a challenge to that inner knowing that you came with …and you are not always easily able to return to your inner knowing. Eventually you do, but it causes you great distress when something, somebody’s opinion or some circumstance or some memory, there are so many ways that one can be off-center, sent to a place, land in a place that is not your center, not your well-being.

And so we see this as a very important starting place and we want to remind you of your knowing, of your wonderful, lovable, wise self. And we encourage you to practice simply allowing the opinions and the reactions and the perhaps harmful intentions or thoughts of others …allow them to drift off.

We just saw an image of bumper cars and we feel that this may be something that you can use – the game of bumper cars which was fun when you were younger. This can be used as a model of how it might be best to interact with the world when it causes you stress – with the outer world, with others, with the strictness of certain rules or regulations or ways of having to be. We see bumper cars …and people in the bumper cars are simply bumping off each other.

It’s a fun game. They laugh, they crash, they aim to crash, they aim to avoid and ultimately they can simply back up and move off a little bit and this game might help you to remember or to learn a way of interacting with others that allows you to simply say 

  • “Oh there’s that silly point of view. I’m going to back up and go to the left”
  • ”Oh there’s that harmful person that wants to hurt my feelings. I’m simply going to back up and go to the right.” 
  • “Oh I see that one coming.I’m going to take a right a left turn quickly and avoid the  interaction that I do not want to have with that person.”

We hope you are understanding our meaning here. We feel this will possibly be a way that you can protect yourself.

Take the actions that are needed to protect yourself from negative thoughts about yourself. This is what we are aiming for, for your balance, for your well-being. So the walks are good, the walking on the railroad tracks or the walking in the woods or wherever you can or the exercising,  the swimming in the pool …whatever it is that you find helpful.

These are very good to keep in your life – but we want to add to this the concept of the bumper cars. Simply not allowing anybody to have this negative impact on you.

And this is a practice. It will not come in one day but it is a good image to keep in your mind and so we leave you with this.

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Secrets

by 8hummingbirdway

My famly had so many secrets. There was sexual abuse and there was mental illness. And there’s still one more secret that in today’s world is no longer even a scandal.

My dad was a cross-dresser, a transvestite in the words of my youth. He didn’t want to BE a woman, like a friend of mine who eventually had gender change surgery. He just felt most himself in women’s clothes. Since it was a dirty little secret, he only had negligees, not full outfits. This is my understanding.

I wasn’t aware of this until adulthood, but when I think back, I can hear his high pitched falsetto voice coming from the bathroom when he was ensconced in there, free to be his alter-ego for a little while.

My sister told me of coming across him in dress when she stayed with him during a college break. She later checked his closet and found a few more things. My mom told me at some point that it was part of her sex life and that it was very problematic for her.

I have written before about family secrets, but my gentle dad is long gone and nobody in my family reads my posts. So I’m finished concerning myself with the impact of these matters.

And this secret has another aspect that moves me to shine the light here.

My brother’s son, my nephew, now identifies as they/them and he (sorry, but I am struggling with this paradigm) wears feminine clothes and colors these days. I love my nephew. He has walked a traumatic path in his youth, socially. He is “on the spectrum” and has dealt with being a social outcast because he doesn’t read social cues well and is “just not cool” in the vernacular of my day. The last time this social outcast thing occurred, in college, he took a left turn into sexual fluidity and found an instant community of friends. And there has been a huge sigh of relief from all of us who love him.

He himself wonders, my brother told me – what exactly is at the root of his choice. He recognizes that it brought him comfort and acceptance.

My brother is a kid lover, like me. Children are his favorite people. He was a Montessori teacher in his second career. He is sad because he has hoped for grandchildren.

The crazy thing about this story is that my nephew doesn’t know about his grandfather’s cross-dressing. He’s in his mid-twenties, and I would be willing to bet that everyone else in our family does know about dad …but there has been a decision made to keep this information from him.

[There is some lack of clarity about whether dad’s cross-dressing was strictly sexual, unlike my nephew’s.]

On my last visit to my brother’s, I admired a lovely photo of my nephew, around the age of 2, listening to my dad’s heart with his toy stethoscope. For some reason, it prompted me to ask whether he knew about dad. And my brother said no. I was surprised, and made a case for it being positive for him to have this information. That he would feel a deeper connection with his grandpa, and possibly some pride or relief that he wasn’t alone in his choice.

It hurts my heart that my nephew doesn’t have this information that I feel would benefit him. I’m not seeing the down side, although I’m sure it was explained to me.

I do admit to a wish that he might take his choice out into the light more fully, and make sure he is choosing for his true self.

In general I don’t think secrets are helpful. They keep us from knowing ourselves. It’s all hiding there, in the pain of our ancestors and siblings and parents And maybe our children.

It has crossed my mind to tell my nephew myself, but it feels …interfering, duplicitous, sneaky- to tell my nephew something significant that his parents don’t want him to know.

Maybe I will someday – if the opportunity arises, but I can’t imagine how or when that would occur. Last time I had alone time with my nephew, we were baking a cake and he was maybe 14.

So I carry it, and it haunts me from time to time.

I just want the best for everyone.

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Karmic Pain and Healing

by 8hummingbirdway

In the past several months I have learned some things about karmic pain.

  1. The pain is real.
  2. It cannot be diagnosed or healed by a medical professional.
  3. It is a release that you can facilitate – if you want to resolve it (and remove the pain).
  4. It may be the result of harm you did to someone in this lifetime, but is often a result of some harm you did to another in a past life. You were the perpetrator – the cause of harm to another.
  5. You can “go within” to discover what the origin of your pain is. Trust what comes to you – a story or visual image of what occurred in the past. The information you receive may be simple or elaborate.

In my 30’s I experienced jaw pain for several months. I had a massage therapist work on it repeatedly, doing deep muscle work. No impact. I consulted with a dentist. Nothing was amiss. One day I screamed into a pillow in frustration …and the pain was gone! I got into my car and drove for about a half hour to a nearby city, screaming all the way and all the way back. It never bothered me again …until this fall.

I have mentioned being engaged with a healing process called Soul Convergence this year. A significant part of the process is to resolve one’s karma, which includes harm one may have done to others. At one point in the process, quite a few participants were experiencing pain that they could not explain.

I cannot say why my jaw pain was dormant for almost 40 years. But this Fall, it resurfaced. I was guided to go within, and I experienced my jaw being caved in as a result of a battle incident. Then I realized I was experiencing the injury that I had done to another. I had been in battle, but this clubbing of another man was done out of cruelty – above and beyond the necessities of battle.

Week after week it was increasingly painful. The pain went from my jaw to my ear, the area of my eyes, and down into my throat. This is what the man I injured experienced, along with shame of his hideous injury, his infected tissue and crumbling skull. He pretended to eat, but could barely drink …and died within a few weeks. I had a great deal of information about this injury.

I eventually learned to go into the pain. I remembered that a woman I had once met talked about mitigating pain by entering it, and I decided to try this. It helped and relieved the pain I was experiencing. I can’t say how this works, but it did.

One morning I woke and the pain was gone.

I have a few other areas of pain I’ve been guided to address as a result of harming others in other lifetimes. One other story was not elaborate like this one. I haven’t gone into the others yet.

According to the teachings of Soul Convergence, it’s time to resolve our karma.

We are moving from a karmic reality to a dharmic reality. I don’t fully know what this means, but now is the time to resolve karma.

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