Best Laid Plans

Oh my gosh! Life is a whirlwind …that I am very much enjoying …but it doesn’t go at all as planned. I feel I am caught up in it’s swirling energies like a leaf in the wind.

I’ve got to stop saying I will do this or do that (posting channeled videos, posting channeled messsages, posting anything at all).

Things are constantly in flux and I don’t seem to be able to direct the flow.

A week ago I led my first full moon circle in several years. It went better than I imagined.

It was so important to me …and I got really nervous.

I manged to find the calm …and it flowed with ease. Old frieds and new.

3 days before that I spoke about my trip to Africa to a group of 15 retired people. It went great. [See posts in Jan/Feb ’24]

These things were on the calendar …I had made outlines …but suddenly I had to hone my talk, gather tools, get photos printed, practice my talk.

The week before was not on the calendar. It was about our cat Newman …while my husband was away. I ended up at emergency care all night with him in the midst of extra chores. It took days for both of us to recover.

A few weeks before that was my daughters wedding and houseguests …and recovery.

Preparatory cooking before that …after a sudden visit from an overseas sister.

And really for months I have been unable to control much …as if the flow of life has plans that I am not aware of.

OK …I may not have come to terms with the limits of my advancing age.

It’s forcing me to slow down.

I have to say that despite my failures and lack …I am so grateful to be walking forward into the unknown …with my husband beside me …with my children/grandchildren/stepchildren not too far away …to be a gardener and a dreamer and a healer …to feel the sun …to breathe the fragrance on the wind …and simply to trust what tomorrow holds.

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Karmic Pain and Healing

In the past several months I have learned some things about karmic pain.

  1. The pain is real.
  2. It cannot be diagnosed or healed by a medical professional.
  3. It is a release that you can facilitate – if you want to resolve it (and remove the pain).
  4. It may be the result of harm you did to someone in this lifetime, but is often a result of some harm you did to another in a past life. You were the perpetrator – the cause of harm to another.
  5. You can “go within” to discover what the origin of your pain is. Trust what comes to you – a story or visual image of what occurred in the past. The information you receive may be simple or elaborate.

In my 30’s I experienced jaw pain for several months. I had a massage therapist work on it repeatedly, doing deep muscle work. No impact. I consulted with a dentist. Nothing was amiss. One day I screamed into a pillow in frustration …and the pain was gone! I got into my car and drove for about a half hour to a nearby city, screaming all the way and all the way back. It never bothered me again …until this fall.

I have mentioned being engaged with a healing process called Soul Convergence this year. A significant part of the process is to resolve one’s karma, which includes harm one may have done to others. At one point in the process, quite a few participants were experiencing pain that they could not explain.

I cannot say why my jaw pain was dormant for almost 40 years. But this Fall, it resurfaced. I was guided to go within, and I experienced my jaw being caved in as a result of a battle incident. Then I realized I was experiencing the injury that I had done to another. I had been in battle, but this clubbing of another man was done out of cruelty – above and beyond the necessities of battle.

Week after week it was increasingly painful. The pain went from my jaw to my ear, the area of my eyes, and down into my throat. This is what the man I injured experienced, along with shame of his hideous injury, his infected tissue and crumbling skull. He pretended to eat, but could barely drink …and died within a few weeks. I had a great deal of information about this injury.

I eventually learned to go into the pain. I remembered that a woman I had once met talked about mitigating pain by entering it, and I decided to try this. It helped and relieved the pain I was experiencing. I can’t say how this works, but it did.

One morning I woke and the pain was gone.

I have a few other areas of pain I’ve been guided to address as a result of harming others in other lifetimes. One other story was not elaborate like this one. I haven’t gone into the others yet.

According to the teachings of Soul Convergence, it’s time to resolve our karma.

We are moving from a karmic reality to a dharmic reality. I don’t fully know what this means, but now is the time to resolve karma.

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