About my last post …and about me

I reread my last post and it feels unbalanced. I’m not sure it’s expressing what I want to express. It took me a very long time to write and perhaps that should have been a clue.

Also – I have been told by a friend that the post before – that I wrote about my closest sister in age – was less than of the highest integrity. This friend always speaks his truth. We do not always agree on what truth exactly is, but I do take note of his words.

I made a small adjustment, but I’m not sure that it is enough. More review ahead.

I now see that I have not painted my far away sister in a kind light. And that I actually painted her in an unkind light. (I have removed this post.)

And I woke this morning with the fear that I am using this particular story, and possibly writing other posts, in a self-aggrandizing way.

Yesterday I discussed this with my kind and wise youngest sister, who mentioned the negative aspect of memoirs, which I tend to stay away from myself.

These family posts – are they not memoirs? Although there is a soul searching aspect to memoirs that I do appreciate. But one has to get it right. I don’t think I have gotten it right.

I have been attmepting to show myself. My imperfect and challenged self. But my family members cannot be used as fodder for this goal.

I have removed the post about my far away sister. I will have to look at all of my posts about family members more closely and take the appropriate action.

It’s not that I have a huge following. I don’t. But what am I doing here?

This blogging aspect came with my website. And I love to write. And if I claim to help others, it seems I should share myself in some way.

It’s my intent to share the contents of my soul.

My life, my past, the way it has formed me – are surely of my soul. But …there are sevral things at play here. I clearly have to sort them out.

It is and has been my intention to write with humility.

The first email that showed up when I got online this morning had this title Ego Death: Restore Your True Self-Identity. Ha ha thank you very much Creator, Universe, Source, Spirit, God/Goddess. I signed up for the class.

And thank you to my friend who holds truth. And to my youngest sister. I am extremely blessed to have people around me who call me out when I go astray.

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